You should go first. Talk to me first. Initiate the conversation. Send the first message. Call me. Tag me. Text me. Just include me. There are so many ways I could tell you to please go first. It’s not a matter of pride. Rather, it is because I need to see how you really feel about me. I feel stupid scrolling down the chat box to check if you’re online. I hate the fact that when I feel sad, I look for your messages in my inbox. Before I invest too much in my feelings and before I start dreaming about a future that only I want. Please talk to me and show me if I’m just imagining all this. Because if it’s just that, I’ll stop.