I AM SAD. Despite having all these friends who come to me with their problems. Even if I can laugh along with all the jokes that other people make. Even though I giggle most loudly in class. Pffffft. There are days when I realize that I don’t have someone to confide in. There isn’t one person whom I can tell how I really feel. I want to tell someone that yes, I feel like crap today. But between proving to the world that I deserve to be where I am now and struggling to survive from day to day – there seems to be no more time left to look for the person who might be what I am to most people I know.
I am the world’s oldest sister. You come to me with your boyfriend troubles. You tell me what you and your best friend has fought over. I hear and I listen. I look and I see. But what of the days when I no longer know what to do with my life?